Brick blow gameover!!!

A series on marriage could be religious trap....

In traditional backgrounds young girls are trapped in marriage ceremony and lead a miserable life. Marriage is always a pompous ceremony in every other culture, in India it has become a religious and legal threat to woman. From countless stories of child marriages, domestic abuse to divorce cases, India still hopes marriage would be sweet dreams in reality it turns out to be a wild nightmare for young girls.. Modern day feminism is just effect or consequence of such unhappy women resorting to live a independent life. Young girls these days aren't afraid to be single rather afraid to enter marriage bond. We are witnessing women abuse everywhere, despite having lot of ngos supporting women security and protection, still we couldn't change the fate of girls being trapped into marriage. Yet profound awareness is risen among our girls to have aaan education that willll support their economy.. let's consider pros and cons of independent women.. are they a threat to our society???? Are they miserable in their own lives? Vedic norms asserts that women must always be protected and dependent on their family. Yet Srimad Bhagavatam perfectly depicts the situation in iron age! Where the protectors become plunderers! Anyway with all these thoughts lingering in my mind, marriage talks are all round the corners of my parents and family members. I was pressurised to get into unlikely proposals against my wish again no big surprise, it is normal because it's "India". I wasn't ready for marriage back back then few years ago. I needed some time. But as a elder sibling, who is always expect sacrifice for the younger selfish ones..again no big surprise! a normal occurrence in Indian families.. a big myth in India is if a girl denies marriage default she is involved in love affair! My parents were suspecting me as well!!! I already told them I am in love with a person who always loves me. They were intent in proving it's just one sided love or more precisely crushing on each silently. Incompatibility issues Family society caste colour blah! blah!! 

I was forced to see many grooms just for their satisfaction particularly they picked the worst ones. I was denying all the proposals which I didn't like. My toxic family members trying to trap me into marriage. Altast there was one proposal, which I had to agree otherwise I will be evicted.. I was clueless when I was cornered by my parents. I already had been dreaming back then to move Vrindavan or mayapur to study and teach sastra. My parents weren't ready to accommodate my way of thinking which they considered it as western. Back and forth countless heated arguments, fights that only drained my energy altogether and no peacefull ever in our family yet I managed to complete spiritual routine no compromise on that. Some pause here and there because of my deteriorated health and emotional stress. Engagements and marriage did happen I never got excited for my funeral (I don't call wedding by the way) and was uninvolved, emotionally withdrawn from ongoing events. He seemed a good man in outlook and speech who knows what monster they hide inside! I Was diligent wife and daughter in law while living living with his family members, Getting the meals ready on time and managing household. I asked him time, as I wasn't ready for sex with him he was seemingly okay with it, acted along to befool them. One fine day, situation broke up, he blurted out in anger he cannot take care of me any further and asked me to leave. I call my parents to come over. Next day morning (nearly afternoon since I didn't sleep te entire night neither he came to bedroom) he took my phone and slammed on to the walll. They kept me locked inside the room, while he was verbally abusing me. I remained undisturbed as never figured out what was the reason for his sudden outburst. My parents came along and situation intensified further he hit me and asked me come inside home I refused saying I am not a puppet in your hands. He started lashing out my parents. I got furious and took bricvk nearby to give him a blow, he kept quite, game over!!!! Our two week marriage ended in a tragedy! Then matter was settled by his brother in law, sensible sober person our negotiator.. I said i cannot live with any longer, they didn't permit us to take my things from their home, till they get legal mutual divorce agreement. Matter remained unsettled. My brother is refusing to give divorce before they give the dowry. Day by day I was living like an uninvited uninvited guest in my own home. I filed fir against him under the guidance of my brother. I blamed my parents everytime, when they accused me of being unsuccessful as wife. We again started visiting few temples to forget painful incidents and they took 

me to psychiatric doctor, as i wasn't able to sleep peacefully at night. There was sense of fear of abandonment engulfing my heart I was restless and frequent nightmares. After I came to Vrindavan dham, everything changed I felt more peaceful and safe in the shelter of Krsna. 

The underlying message in writing  my story is never force your daughters into marriage when they aren't ready just to fit in society. You parents are creating hellish situations for us!!!